Crush Crushed?

Okay. The thing is that I wanted to talk about my crush, but I don't even want to know where to start.

...

All right, Here it goes.

So at my college (yes, this life-form goes to college somewhere on the planet Earth... a law school ... hehe don't ask why I got the time to blog this. lol) there is a guy who's really nice, good-looking (or may be just okay-looking to some people ), tall, dark tan skin tone, really smart ( yes I know that  a law school is full of smart people, didn't really have to bring that up i know), humorous, a gentleman, and he really loves his mother. Well, now you know that I was talking about my crush. I fall head over heal when ever I saw him, I was struck dumb whenever I try to talk to him, and these symptoms should have stopped already. That is because it has been going for almost a year now, but sadly, it didn't. The feeling grows stronger, so think that I must have loved him. Yes, the feeling is too strong.

However, life isn't like a nice block butter that is flawlessly creamy. While I was falling for everything he did, a rumor has been going around my faculty that this guy is gay. Of course I heard the rumor and did not believe any of it because I was accustomed to hearing that straight guys being call gay, which happens a lot in my family. We tend to joke on each other's sexuality for fun, but strictly speaking, we are all straight people. 

Then one day, this guy that I had mentioned earlier when up to a junior in our class and said things like "You know what? I am tired of being in this university. Girls are everywhere you turn to. Sometimes I just feel like being suffocated when I see too many girls." And literally, I was sitting right in front of his face when he said that. Unconsciously, I just let out a laugh, audible, of course. He was like "Were you eavesdropping on me?" So I said things like "Well, you were loud enough to be heard." So he went like "Well, don't get me wrong . I'm not like that. Seriously." Guess what, I believed him, unquestionably. Of course some guys are a bit uncomfortable went they are in the middle of groups of girls all the time. That's normal, right?

Same class some weeks later, he was doing a pose to many guys like he was proposing them to marry or something. Well, that's normal right? I mean, guys usually do those things for fun, to scare other people away and all. And the other time when a friend asked him his name, he answered it in a harmlessly girlishly cute way. I don't know what he was thinking, like were you just trying to look innocent and harmless because most people see you as a serious academic person? I don't know. That might be it.

Moreover, one thing that I don't really understand is that people keep saying that he really likes a boy cheerleader in our faculty. I know that he must be liking someone, but he never says who. I even suspect him not denying statements that would literally means he likes the cheerleader. Not that he ever agree to those statements, not that I heard of. His close friends openly made fun of him that he's gay and all, but he was always angry and denied it. When a quiz I did said that my type of men is the nice, good-looking gentleman kind, he would said things like "Oh that is just like me." I was like ---> O.O" (happy, confusing, dying inside, wanted to yell out "YES, YOU ARE THE ONE, BUT ARE YOU GAY???")

I know that some straight guys are a bit too feminine because they are gentlemen, and some people just don't fit into any social standards and all. I mean ... normally he looks like a normal nice guy who's often critical to everything he sees.

Finally, I still thinks that he's a straight guy, a weird one though. I don't know, may be love does the magic, like they say in the bible "when perfection comes, imperfection disappear" X )

P.S. Right now I'm a bit content with how I don't post videos on my blog because it'll be hard for people to come and read these stuff. However, if anyone is reading this, leave a comment or something. Then I'll know someone's reading my life. lol 

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Angels Online #1 : IGG BUZZ CODE

Hi !! I'm back. After the finals and all I finally got the chance to play games!!! This time I'm playing Angel Online.  For those of you who desire to sign up for igg game web which will allow you to play many other games you might need the BUZZ code. Oh and it's  free as long as you don't push yourself to buy gold coins. Anyway, Buzz code are optional. You dont have to put in the buzz code, but if you do then you will get all sort of cool stuff that can help you when you are in level 60. So here's a 24/7 working buzz code that you can you can use:

15745117
P.S. You don't have to use mine tho ... could have just use anybody's buzz code, but won't you  help MintPiebald with her games and all ? O.O Of course, after you got yourself an igg account, then you will have  your buzz code to share with other people too. ^ ^



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Trying too hard ...

After this blog was created, I have been thinking about making a logo for the blog.
I took the effort to make a logo twice, but failed miserably while i need to be studying for my finals.

1. When I was about to finish the first one, my computer froze. Then I didn't have the heart to continue my wee project for a day.
2. After I put my self together and try to create a logo for the second time, I succeed. Actually, I thought I did it. Then I looked up the Chinese Zodiac Animal. This year is rabbit year and Horse year don't go well with Rabbit year. They clashes in some way.

You know what? I think I'm not going to put up any logo for a while. I'm not giving up. It just that I think all of this means I should be studying for my test tomorrow. Grrr!

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